We'll have Halloween on Christmas

A kiddies Voldemort costume doubles as a Witch costume - just add a sparkly witches hat!

This pic was from Halloween. Which seems so recent but was more than a month ago. Where does time go? As you can see I was kitted out as a witch. Here in Australia, Halloween is only just gaining momentum. I am actually quite disappointed I didn't get to experience a real Halloween when I was little - all the chocolate I've missed out on :( This year however Mum and I dressed our windows with pumpkins (plastic) and skeletons (also plastic) and bought loads of Halloween treats. We only had one trick-or-treater come to our door, and though he wasn't in costume he did have the loveliest of manners and we couldn't help but fill is library bag with chocolate and 'Oozing Eyeballs'.

Jelly Filled Marshmallow 'Eyeballs'. Seriously addictive.

Speaking of time passing by, please excuse the long absent of late. I've had exams to deal with throughout November plus my birthday. I had TWO exams on my actually birthday as well. Even worse one of these exams were Maths. I hate Math. Isn't that a horrible way to spend your 23rd birthday?

Now exams are all over though, and guess what? I passed! This means I will be officially graduating in March. I am so relieved/proud/excited! Since finishing university I haven't been up to too much. Just working three to four days a week. I am trying to make the most of what will be my last summer holidays EVER.

Today I applied for a real world Marketing junior position. My first application since completing my degree, which is simultaneously exciting and terrifying. Hopefully I get a response.

Going to hunt down some of those left over eyeballs. Yum

Fear is not an excuse

This past week I've been watching One Tree Hill Season 5. One Tree Hill is by far one of my favourite television shows. If you've never watched it before, give it a chance, it won't disappoint!

Watching this season has inspired me. The characters have aged dramatically since last time we saw them and have matured accordingly. They are now at a stage in their lives that match mine. They are post university, they've spent the past five or so years working hard to get somewhere, and now that they've finished, they look around and wonder 'How did this happen? How did I end up here? Where is here?'

These are questions I ask myself almost daily. I only have four exams to sit and then my university education is complete (providing I pass all four courses). While this is exciting, mostly this just terrifies me. What do I do now? I guess now I have to suck it up and head into the 'grown-up' world. Some friends I know have been skirting around that world for a while now. "Real" jobs, "real" relationships, "real" houses, hell even "real" babies. Sometimes I wonder if I am ready for all that "real". Often I am convinced that I am most certainly NOT ready at all. Sometimes I figure I'll just fake it 'til I make it. But surely the real grown-ups will be able to see that I'm faking. Right?

Then there are other times, like when watching One Tree Hill, that I realise that no one is ever ready. Anyone who says they are, are faking it. And that's okay. Sometimes we all need to put on that mask, just to get through the day. You know the one. The one that says 'I'm a well educated young woman with the world at her feet who can do anything, and everything'. So why wouldn't you want to hire/friend/date her?

Maybe it's not so much that we are lying to ourselves. Maybe we are simply trying to remind ourselves of just how great we can be.

Maybe that's all the real world is - scared little kids putting on a brave face every morning, hoping that no one will notice when that mask slips just a little bit.

I've realised that just being scared, is not reason enough to not go after something you want. Fear is not an excuse. Fear should be what makes you try even harder.

What those Tree Hill kids have to get them through is friends that become family. The people around you who are their to help clean up the mess when that mask does eventually fall. And when it does it'll be okay, because your friends and family don't love that mask, they love the person beneath it. Insecurities and all.

So here's to Fear and friends and family. And to never again believing for even a second, that what's beneath the mask isn't good enough.

Open days and long socks

This past weekend was spent tagging along with my brother to the university open days in our city.

Yesterday we went to Flinders University. To me it is a very American college type campus, at least aesthetically.

The career my bro wants to pursue (high school PE teacher) is offered here in the best format.

Today we went to UniSA.

As a UniSA student myself (soon to be graduate, thank you) I am biased.

However this uni does not offer the programme that best suits my brother.

So it looks like he will be a Flinders kid. Traitor. Just kidding. Kind of.

Some of today's talks mention work placements and work experience.

I have none of either.

Which could be a major problem when looking for employment in four months time.

Someone need to pull their socks up then.

Well, I would if I owned anything other than anklet socks. Seriously, anything longer irritates me.

Ignoring my sock situation and back to the proverbial.

Work experience is something that I've always meant to get around to, but another assignment crept up on me and then another. And here we are. With no work experience or long socks.

This week I will start attacking, I mean contacting various organisations about work experience.

Hopefully I can con someone into having me.